I just wanted to tell you that…that I am so tankful. For everything. Everything you said. And for what you became in my heart. Thank you.
So that’s why I want you to now now that…….that I am crying. Right now. In this moment.Wanna know why….?
I listened to this song. And I was listening and reading lyrics. And so…. I remember when I was listening to that every day. every day. Not because I really liked that song, more because it reminded me…on…Nick and me. And I wasn’t listening to that song for nearly two months now.
And…. i just can’t help myself. I feel so deeply sad. Because…. I think I needed two months to realize that….that I miss Nick. Not that I want him back. I just realize what have I done in true. In past months I was maybe just a little too socked. Somehow it didn’t truly come to my brains that….that it’s over.
And I am crying and crying and crying. and I don’t know what to do about it.
But please, don’t think that I will be sad forever. It’s sadness that comes….and leaves too.
I just need someone right now to hug me.
To tell me that it’s okay.